This is the grocery list on my parent’s fridge. Jamie and I like to remind them to buy things for one another that we think could be helpful.
12 year olds
December 29th, 2009 .“Through the years we we all will be together”
December 25th, 2009 .
“Look how they shine for you…”
December 24th, 2009 .
I just crawled into bed in my childhood room. Yes, I have been home countless times since I officially moved out, but I never sleep in this room anymore as it has been converted into a room for daily use. Tonight, I sleep here because there is a jolly holiday full house. I only write about it because my kid self has left a message to my adult self. I turned off the light in the room and laid down in the now, much smaller bed, and on the ceiling, carefully placed one by one, there are are hundreds of stars. Stars. Everywhere. Bright. The are almost shocking when the lights go off. I was thrown for a moment- thrown into a time warp. And after that moment, I just laid here…and smiled…and remembered.
When I was a child, those stars inspired thoughts of a bigger world out there, awaiting exploration. They made me think about how small I am and how even though I am that small, I have an impact to make. They made me dream. They made me calm some nights. They were mine. They belonged to me. The whole ceiling solar system was mine. So isn’t it funny, that after all these years, I had completely forgotten about those stars? I have been in this house. I have been in this room. But, I have not been here, lying down, lights off, looking up. It is always about perspective. It is always about seeing something from every angle. The determined, kid me stood on my bed, star sticker in hand and jumped/stuck jumped/stuck jumped/stuck so many times I just couldn’t do it any more. And here it is, after all these years, a reminder- keep jumping and don’t be surprised when history awakens something completely new inside. When you least expect it, look up, and there are the stars…
New Tune Tuesday (The Holiday Edition)
December 22nd, 2009 .Tis the season to share a Christmas song that we all wrote for Let There Be Balloons. Enjoy!
Hello Mr. or Mrs. Obvious!
December 21st, 2009 .Things that make me go “UGH.”
Anyone who acts like a Ba-humbug…
…and people complaining about any of the following:
-How they can’t believe it is Christmas time again.
-How much they have to do to get ready for Christmas.
-How much stress they are under because of the holidays.
- How the economy is effecting their holiday season.
-How they ’shouldn’t eat this (insert something fattening)’ because it will make them fat.
Oh my, I could go on, but I do not want to spread the rotten, outdated verbiage any further. Really, don’t people get tired of saying the same things over and over? Regurgitation is not a pleasant act for anyone involved. Why pass that weird negativity on and on and on? I digress, as just bringing it up here, I am now guilty of it too. Eeek!
A kid reaction
December 16th, 2009 .It is so hard to look at an old friend and see their new life and not think “wait, wait, don’t leave me behind!” What a silly thought, really, but still, it is such an easy thought to have. I find myself looking at pictures of my friends new adventures and thinking “who is that? I don’t know anyone else in that picture. How could that be?” Wow. What a ridiculous thing to admit, huh? I know, I know, I know that people can move on and out without leaving the old behind. It is the old tinker toy stacking system of life and relationships and structures. The old is the foundation, the very solid at the bottom of the heap that holds up everything new that is added on. It doesn’t go anywhere. It doesn’t move. And even if a storm comes and huffs and puffs and blows the whole building down, there it is. The foundation- still there and still intact.
And so now, because I have admitted these silly feelings, they can be gone. Be gone silly feelings. Be gone.
Doormen
December 16th, 2009 .
Kansas always knows…
December 15th, 2009 .…how to say ‘welcome home.’
It’s a jug-band Christmas
December 10th, 2009 .I can’t help but love Emmet Otter’s Jug-Band Christmas. Yeah, yeah, it gets a little slow and the story line leaves you wanting more, but come on, the music will have you toe tapping and humming along in no time. So, if you like this movie, watch these bloopers and laugh your Christmas loving head off. If you don’t, well, don’t.
All I want for Christmas
December 9th, 2009 .This movie makes me melt :
All I want for Christmas (click here to watch the trailer)- When I was little, the two kids in this film reminded me of me and Lancer. I just knew that any situation we were in, we would cook up some wild plan to make things go our way and he would always stick his neck out for me…even if he wanted to choke me for it later. I thought maybe I just loved this film as a kid, but watched it again the other night and hark! It is still awesome!
So, today, Lance starts to chat with me on Facebook and this is what he says:
Just wanted to say hi!
And this
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Haha! This pretty much sums him up in 3 lines. He is a totally rad big brother. I’m heading to Chicago again this weekend to attend my Uncle Phil’s memorial service and am then staying to hang out and have down holiday time (meaning minus the madness) with Lance, Alison and my cousin Scott. I consider myself lucky that I still get giddy to hang out with them. Really, hanging out with the beautiful people in my life is all I want for Christmas.